I attended a friends chapbook signing not too long ago, it was a pleasant time. I enjoyed being with other writers, especially one as iconic as Dave Morice. Of course there were other people there who knew me from back in the days when I did a great deal of reading locally. There was a certain excitement that came with getting up in front of people and telling a story or reading a few poems. However, I over did it and it burned me out. Now I rarely read to an audience. I feel I got what I wanted out of it, and now, unless I am asked, I don't.
I spent a great deal of time pondering the benefits of public reading and think a lot about that line from the film, 'Finding Forrester':
"You know why people read in public, don't you? Well, its because they just want to get laid!"
This from the crusty old, writer/author, Forrester (played by Sean Connery) to the young writer fledgling, Jamal. Leaving the young man astonished and confused. Poor lad, I felt his disbelief, but the statement sure did strike a cord with me. Every time after, when I stepped up on that stage, I found myself scanning the audience, concerned and hoping no one misconstrued my intentions. I just wanted to share my art and was truly, not seeking any kind of carnal benefit. I imagine that until the time comes around, that I am published again and the need to mount the podium arises, I will remain here in my study, chasing the solace that comes with writing.